We "talked." Closure isn't all it's cracked up to be for the following reasons: Given the day that we live in; you are most likely to recieve this "closure" in the form of an email, text message, and if you're really lucky; a phone call.
Well I got my text messages last night. There were quite a few. I don't know how much of it was truth; but what he did say was pretty fugly. Nathan bascially told me that I didn't really know him. He said he was not a good person; for me or for anyone. "Find a good man, Vicky. One who will treat you right and take care of you," he wrote. He said that it was real and that he wanted it to work; but just couldn't move forward.
Blah blah blah blah. It doesn't even matter anymore. I'm a pretty understanding person and things could have been so much different. We could have just been friends.
Last night I was talking to this guy I used to date. "Don't you miss your boyfriend?" he asked. It was almost as if he was accusing me of moving on too quickly. (Yes we were just TALKING.) I did my best to make it work. I tried to help him with his issues and still be happy in our relationship. Things went bad because of him. Am I supposed to mourn and not talk to any new prospects because not enough time has passed? Lesson learned, but life goes on. It's not that I didn't have real feelings for Nathan; I just know that there's nothing I could have done differently that would have made the relationship last. He sabotaged it. Life goes on.